And as soon as it came, it went.

No sense in being vague. I miscarried this morning around 10am. I've been taking pregnancy tests frequently over the past week because I can no longer enjoy pregnancy and have to deal with paranoia (and for good reason, obviously) and yesterday, the words Not Pregnant appeared on my digital test. I took a cheap test before work last night and saw the faintest of lines, then another this morning with an even fainter line. Then I started cramping and the blood came and now I'm just a sad mass of sad. I'm assuming it was a chemical pregnancy, but loss is loss. I'm not teaching today, so Jac and Leah are taking care of Elias for me. They're in Jac's room watching movies, so I'm going to stay in my bed and watch Roseanne and maybe play WoW to get my mind somewhere else for a little while.

Cats and stuff

The kitties had an appointment to get their vaccinations, since they were too tiny and sick when we first got them. Everything is healthy with them, much to our relief. No parasites, no problems. Phew.

And in other news, we've got a surprise bundle due October 2018. Right now, there isn't much to report aside from being starving to death all the live long day. I've only told a handful of people like my parents and siblings. When I told my dad he's going to be a granddaddy again, he started crying.  It was sweet. I'm feeling emotional, myself. My little sister isn't here and this baby won't ever know Auntie Em. But, I'm staying positive and I hope this is a smooth pregnancy.

Park

I've only worked one day this week, so the cabin fever set in. I convinced the fam to go on a walk behind the house because we all needed fresh air. Plus, it was the perfect overcast, gusty-but-not-cold weather.

Since Mardi Gras came and went too quickly, and since Mississippi doesn't celebrate such fun occasions, I baked a "homemade" king cake out of canned cinnamon rolls. Turned out great, but super rich. I plan to make another for Easter.

28 days hath February

Jena stayed with us over the weekend. She brought a king cake and we watched about five seasons of Friends. This year marks 30 years of friendship and we've decided to get symbolic tattoos at some point in the next few months. I've also decided on a tattoo for Emily, and would like to go ahead and get Elias', as well as the Deathly Hallows. Lots of fun inking to procure this year.

The kiddos are about halfway through the school year and I've started pricing next year's curriculum. I'm having a hard time accepting my eldest will be in the 7th grade this year (insert ugly-cry emoji here) and my baby is creeping out from toddlerhood. Jac and Leah have started reading more in their free time, much to my delight. I've had enough of the video game obsession, which has now been fully embraced by Elias. All day long, "Mayocot!" which roughly translates to Mario Kart. He doesn't exactly play the game, but he'll watch the cars go via automatic acceleration. He likes books, as well, and has started quoting The Gruffalo and Room on the Broom, both of which are his favorites. A while back I purchased some classics from Target's clearance section for about $1 each, so Jac has already read Anne of Green Gables, The Time Machine, and Treasure Island. Leah has read Legend of Sleepy Hollow, and is working on Little Women. They're broken down so young children can read them and get the plot of the story without getting distracted by too many large words.

Work has been slow, so I've been home more. I finally got around to putting pictures of the kids around the house and getting rid of more stuff. Alex is giving me Emily's car, so I'm going to try to turn in the paperwork early next week, as well as file our taxes. So many adult chores to accomplish. But at least I crocheted a bunch of macarons, right? #productive