Wednesday, July 18, 2018

20 weeks, 1 day

Mom traded cars with me this morning so I could drive to the doctor in something that would get me there without worries. I dropped my big kids off with Zac around 9am, then headed to Canton. I'm a little bothered that my OB moved over that way because it's a longer drive. I can't imagine laboring in a car that long... Yikes.

ANYWAY. The appointment was super thorough. The tech checked for a cleft palate, correct chambers in his heart, spine length, etc. It was crazy how much I could see on the screen compared to even being pregnant with Elias so few years ago. He's got Zac's nose and lips, which made him look so much like Leah's ultrasound pictures, minus her little round cheeks. I just can't wait to see him.

Pregnancy highlights:
How far along: 20 weeks, 1 day.
Size of baby: Banana!
Total weight gain/loss: 16 pounds heavier.
Maternity clothes: Still leggings, though they're getting snug.
Gender: Still very much a boy. I had her check again, just in case.
Movement: A lot in the afternoon and right before bed. He's sitting low on my hips and doesn't like when I lean forward.
Cravings: Nothing specific anymore, just hungry more often.
Symptoms: Hungry, tired, random spurts of energy.
Best moment this week: Everything looked perfect on his scan. No worries.

Tuesday, July 17, 2018


My grumpy old dad has turned 82. He's been doing surprisingly well, up and down, since his fall almost two years ago. It's impressive how much his body wants to live, even on the days he doesn't. His strength is slowly returning, but I'm taking credit for that since I baked him his favorite yellow cake with chocolate frosting. He always perks up with sweets, even though he may not look like it.

Thursday, July 12, 2018

A little of this, a little of that

The past few weeks have been uneventful. I haven't had many hours at work, so I've been spending time with my kiddos and crocheting a lot. We've been going to the library every Saturday to pick out books that the kids can read on their own and that I can read to them as well. Right now, we're working on Mary Poppins. James has nearly finished the Wimpy Kid series and Leah is reading her way through the Judy Moody series. It's so awesome seeing them reading so much. The library gave them coupons to Cane's which allows a free kid's meal after reading seven books. Zac is exited about that more than they are.

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I'm a little over 19 weeks into this pregnancy and have started nesting in random bursts. Some days my allergies are so bad, I'm too exhausted to do much. I'm taking Benadryl, which makes me drowsy, but I plan to ask Dr. W for a non-drowsy remedy when I see him next week. I can feel Nicolas from the outside now, which is nice. He's sitting super low, right where my hips are. I was thinking he'd have moved up by now, but nope. It makes mid-night trips to the bathroom super fun. I'm also up a good 20 pounds, which has been fluctuating a bit the past two weeks. It's only six pounds over my high-end limit for healthy weight gain, so I'm not worried. Like I said, it fluctuates.

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Dad's home from rehab since he wasn't improving with his physical therapy. He's been home maybe two weeks and is now on hospice care. He's been sick with a UTI and a fever this week. Hopefully he feels better soon. We're planning to go over there this weekend with a cake for his 82nd birthday if he's feeling up for it. I'd like to get a really good picture of my three kids together and frame it for him. He doesn't have any pictures of them from recently. He's glad to be home, though. He can lay in his own bed, watch TV, eat food that isn't from a cafeteria, etc. Much happier.

Wednesday, July 4, 2018

4th of July 2018

Our fourth of July was spent with Ashley and Mike at our house. Zac grilled hot dogs and made strawberry and blueberry shortcakes while I hurriedly finished crocheting Ashley's lap blanket before she noticed what I was doing. Our kids played together rather well and lit some sparklers in the rain.

As for the blanket, I've been crocheting a lot lately. I made some booties and a hat for Nicolas, as well as a blanket, plus the first blanket for Ashley that I ran out of yarn on (and Walmart doesn't sell that type anymore, of course). So I had to start completely over with new yarn and managed to whip up a lap blanket in two days. Now, if only I could sell some and get a home business going.

Saturday, June 30, 2018


Recently, we learned that every year, there is a hot-air balloon festival near Jackson. Last year, we tried to go, but it was rained out. This year, or yesterday, we managed to find a parking spot near the mall where the balloons were within sight. There was no lift-off, but they were lit up to glow, a.k.a, "Balloon Glow". We sat in the parking lot, eating Chik Fil A and watching the balloons inflate until it grew darker and Elias decided he was done with life because there were no firetrucks to see.

Tuesday, June 26, 2018


So I've been suffering from allergies since probably March, maybe sooner. I figured it was the change of the seasons. But, as I've been staying indoors to avoid excessive pollen outside, I discovered only recently that I'm actually allergic to my cats. Awesome. I guess it doesn't help that Colby Jack is unnaturally fluffy, so much in fact, I could build a new cat with the fur he leaves in clumps around the house. I read that pregnancy can lower my immunity to everything, but I never thought it would mean a trip into the past when my allergy to cats was most non-triumphant. We're keeping them, as well as plenty of Benadryl. I'll be relatively comatose until the smallest, whom we've named Nicolas, arrives.

Friday, June 22, 2018

I dream in cheesecake.

So I can't get enough to eat, apparently. I'm worried I'm eating more than I should, but it feels like not enough and I'm left with a burning sensation in my guts. Drinking water helps, but let's get real, I want a bowl of strawberries and some carrots and maybe a hot dog or seven. And nachos, broccoli and cheese soup, brownies, a smoothie, and whatever else Scott Calvin listed when he was in denial about being Santa Claus.

Food Survey
  1. How do you feel about golden Oreos? I dig 'em.
  2. What is your favorite dessert topping? Butterscotch or cherries.
  3. What is your favorite flavor/brand of bubble gum? Minty kind.
  4. Favorite cheese? Cake.
  5. Favorite lunch meat? Bologna. Seriously.
  6. Favorite ice cream flavor? Vanilla. Not vanilla bean.
  7. Best looking food? Sushi.
  8. Best food to put cheese on? Potatoes.
  9. Best sexual food? Strawberries, I guess.
  10. Best tasting drink in the summer? Ice tea or pink lemonade.
  11. Best tasting drink in the winter? Hot cocoa or apple cider.
  12. Best food for a night out with friends? Sushi.
  13. Best foods to eat with a roll? Soups.
  14. Messiest food, in your opinion? Barbecue.
  15. Easiest food to prepare? Take out.
  16. Cheapest food you ever ate? Taco Bell.
  17. Most expensive food you ever ate? Disney World food.
  18. Stinkiest food you ever ate? Tuna.
  19. Favorite dipping sauce? Depends on what's being dipped.
  20. Best pizza topping? Artichokes.
  21. Favorite potato chip flavor? Plain for dipping.
  22. Most toxic substance you ever ate? I drank a bottle of orange Triaminic when I was little.
  23. Most calories you ate in one meal? I'm sure it was a buffet of some sort.
  24. Favorite soda? Red cream soda.
  25. Favorite flavor of juice? White grape peach.
  26. Favorite vegetable? Zucchini.
  27. Favorite fruit? Raspberries.
  28. Worst canned food? Fruit cocktail.
  29. Best side dish? Potatoes.
  30. Worst fast food restaurant? Taco Bell.
  31. Best restaurant? Sushi places.
  32. Best smelling food? Peppers.
  33. Favorite appetizer? Spinach artichoke dip.
  34. Favorite cookie flavor? White chocolate chip.
  35. Favorite cake flavor? Carrot.
  36. Favorite pie flavor? Cherry.
  37. Chocolate or rainbow sprinkles? Neither.
  38. Ketchup or mustard? Mustard.
  39. Best food to have on a date? Sushi.
  40. Most share-able food? Amy doesn't share food.

Wednesday, June 20, 2018

It's a...


Another little boy... He's perfect in every way, though my heart felt this would be a little girl. I had a name for a girl, but another boy means we don't have to do much shopping as I still have quite a few of Elias' things. Now to pick a name. He was so wiggly the whole time the tech was trying to measure him. She wasn't even sure if the gender would be correct at this age, but she said he is 100% male. I told the kids if he was a girl, we'd go to Bops; a boy, we'd go to Fernando's. So we had Fernando's for dinner with Mom. Afterward, we went to visit my dad for a little while in the rehab facility. He's looking alright, just tired.

Everything is good with me. Weight is normal, blood work is normal, etc. I don't have to go back until mid July.

Pregnancy highlights:
How far along: 16 weeks, 1 day.
Size of baby: Avocado!
Total weight gain/loss: I've gained about 12 pounds.
Maternity clothes: Stretchy shirts now.
Gender: Boy!
Movement: Here and there. Usually random times throughout the day.
Cravings: Not really. I still love potatoes, which explains the 12 pounds, I'm sure.
Symptoms: Really tired in the afternoon to where I have to sleep or I get a headache.
Best moment this week: Gender scan.

Saturday, June 16, 2018


Meredith and Matt drove through town on their way back to Texas, so we, along with my brother and his family, and Mom met up at China Buffet for dinner. It was nice visiting with them. All the kids sat together at one table like "big kids" while us adults and smaller kids sat at another.

James, Jordan, Molly, Brendan, Aidan, Elias in front of Leah, Wes

After dinner, Meredith, Mom, my big two, and myself went to see my dad for a few minutes before heading to Mom's to hang out. I'm hoping we can go visit Meredith in July, but that plan is still up in the air. The kids would love the trip.

Friday, June 15, 2018


I've never cared for the number seven, even though it's usually a significant number: days of the week, deadly sins, Voldemort's horcruxes, etc. But now, today, is the seventh month my sister is not here. Seven months I've gone without hearing her on the other line of a phone conversation, without a response to a goofy video, without words of encouragement when Mom is most annoying. She's not here to come by and have coffee with me. I'm actually not sure how seven months have gone by when it feels like she was just here yesterday.

I realized that it doesn't get easier to go through my days without thinking about her or missing her. Sometimes it feels like I'm going to finally be okay, but to be honest, it just gets pushed down over and over until it spills out. The other night, I was on my way home from work, and I was listening to some music she never heard of. But suddenly, I was choked up and couldn't keep my tears back. It just hurt to know we'll never ride in the same car together or hear her singing so loud. Even writing this is hard to do without tears. It's been a rough seven months. I'm trying to wade through the thickness of grief and mourning while holding on to the the joy of one more little soul to complete our family, but it gets overwhelming at times. I'm lucky that I have a handful of really great friends (long-distance and local) who understand my sorrow and are there for me, even if it's only through social media. They can't take Emily's place, but they help fill that empty space in my chest and remind me that it's okay to be sad.